I will not contain you.

When I forget to take my meds I wake up feeling like my chest/heart/whatever the fuck/it doesn't matter has been pounded by a large hammer. I can't tell the difference between emotional and physical pain. Why am I awake at this time?

"I want to go back across that sea
with my hands out
and I will rise from the water
though I'm cold and wet I will be clean
I want come back from this robbery
with my hands up
and lie down and be handcuffed
take me I'll be yours
dripping wet
just try and hold me
I am dripping wet and limp"

-Mount Eerie "With My Hands Out"