What do you want?

I want to...

spoon with Ian Curtis in bed and make him breakfast.
drink whiskey with Tom Waits in an empty bar.
dance with Elliott Smith in an empty parking lot.
nap peacefully with Nick Drake in a sunny field of grass.
swim with Jeff Buckley in a river and sing Led Zeppelin songs together.
have coffee with Leonard Cohen and take walks through deserted parks.

Whenever I am sad I read Beautiful Losers and listen to my favourite men.

I will be listening to this mix tonight. "Descent into Madness?"

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hello, darling.

"What we call happiness arises from the fairly sudden satisfaction of pent-up needs. By its very nature it can be no more than an episodic phenomenon. Any prolongation of a situation desired by the pleasure principle produces only a feeling of lukewarm comfort; we are so constituted that we can gain intense pleasure only from the contrast, and only very little from the condition itself. Hence, our prospects of happiness are already restricted by our constitution"

"Yes, we shall not fall out of the world. We are in it once and for all."

Oh, you pretty things.

Spring Nostalgia Playlist.

Saturday Night We Went Swimming and There Was Light In the Water - Atlas Sound
What We Are - I Create Soundscapes
Black Lake - Real Estate
Love is Strange - Sic Alps
I Will - The Beatles
The Purple Bottle - Animal Collective
This Aching Deal - Shocking Pinks
Beach Point Pleasant - Ducktails
In the Flowers - Animal Collective
In Teen Dreams - Ancient Crux
Say You Miss Me - Wilco
(I Wanna Be A) Dumbcharger - Guided By Voices
Try to Remember - The Apples in Stereo
Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games - Of Montreal
Jeepster - T.Rex
Motion Suggests - Pavement
Muzzle of Bees - Wilco
Playground Love - Air
Suburban Beverage - Real Estate
The Warm Current's Pull - Blind Man's Colour
Flesh Canoe - Animal Collective

"It is the nostalgia which produces the desire to fragment, the impossible yearning for the lost (imaginary) object of desire which issues in the frustrated and atavistic smashing of the ideal object...one sees the possibility of humanist affirmation destroyed by an insistent and excessive nostalgic sense of loss of pure Being whose impossible realization produces the urge to destroy altogether what can be. If things are fragmenting, let's fragment them utterly."

-Patricia Waugh

Photos belong to A Fötos at flickr.

Tell me lies later, come and see me.

Dennis Wilson was a cool dude. He gets it. I want to be there with him, rolling around in the grass half-drunk on cheap wine. The epic beard says everything.

My current playlist.

Wild Is the Wind - Cat Power
Archaic Smile - Wye Oak
We're Both So Sorry - Mirah
Cocktails - Dennis Wilson
Dream Scream - Daniel Johnston
Who? - Mount Eerie with Julie Doiron and Fred Squire
Heavy Water/I'd Rather Be Sleeping - Grouper
I Felt Your Shape - Microphones
Umbilical - Mazzy Star
Deep Honey - Goldfrapp
I Don't Like it Like This - Radio Dept.
An Orchid - Atlas Sound
Fire - Valet
The Rainbow - Talk Talk
Double Suicide - Sandro Perri
Sleep - Mazzy Star
Re: stacks - Bon Iver

Nothing new here. My musical equivalent of a Sunday afternoon spent sipping chai tea, wrapped in a warm blanket, surrounded by cats while watching an indulgent epic film. Preferably of the romantic tragedy variety.

My head is buzzing due to excessive drugs, too many cigarettes and the smell of you still lingering in my sheets. I sense your ignorance across spaces. I can see you acting out the version of yourself you'd like others to believe in. I am jealous of everyone who can still touch you.